Update about my Art

I want to be upfront and say that there isn’t just one or two reasons why you all haven’t been seeing as much art being posted here in my blog or on my social media platforms. It has layers.

So, let’s talk about art for a second.

The creative process isn’t linear. It’s fluid and should be ever changing and evolving. It isn’t just aesthetically pleasing content to consume. It is something that we all can and should create to help the soul to grow and evolve. It is self-expression in beautiful and raw and authentic ways.

In this era of AI being shoved into literally everything nowadays, that will generate bland distortions of whatever you tell the program to create, it is so challenging to try and convince people why they need to care about the creative process. And the pressure to create content just to be consumed, used, and then forgotten is so crushing to the creative process.

Part of the creative process is trying new things. It isn’t just churning out the same thing over and over again. That’s consumerism and capitalism. Very few artists keep making the same kind of thing for year and years out. They will shift their style, focus on new things, try something completely different, all to help them to grow and expand their art.

I originally started posting my art to help me to become a better sigil artist. I love the runes and creating Bindrunes is like a little puzzle for me to solve in my head that is very fun and rewarding. However, I felt I hit the ceiling of where I could be creative with my Bindrunes probably about five to six years ago. It hit me very clearly one day when I accidentally recreated one of my other Bindrunes for a client without even realizing it. So, I decided that I wanted to put in the effort to really push my creativity with my Bindrune art and it definitely payed off, but I kept hitting that ceiling again and again.

Deep down, I knew that I needed to step out of my comfort zone and just try and do something different. However, I really struggled with letting my followers down who wanted to see my Bindrunes and weren’t necessarily there to see other content. Which I see now how social media and content creation is really, really harmful to artists for that reason alone.

So, I just stopped posted as much. I stopped challenging myself to become a better Bindrune artist because I got bored of making Bindrunes which all started to look so similar to me. I lost a lot of my creative spark and instead saved what little I had left for commissions. I put my attention and energy elsewhere. Which running your own business, isn’t hard to do at all. But then I would feel obligated to make some sort of post and tried to find that spark, and I would find a bit here and there, but ultimately the lesson from the universe was to stop trying to force myself to create for others and create for myself again.

But even that was hard to do. I didn’t even know where to start. I followed a lot of great advice from my husband who is a professional artist, and the greatest advice he gave was to start cool hunting. Go and look for stuff that you think is really cool and will help inspire you again. And it actually took a long time to really find anything that I found interesting enough to peak my interest.

Fast forward to the beginning of this year, I started getting back into studying Chinese medicine, which led me back to C-dramas, and discovering new book series, which led me down a whole path I had not allowed myself to explore in a very, very long time, but once I did, I kept getting a million and one confirmations from the universe I was finally headed down the right path.

I talk about following soul ancestry and how our past lives are just as important as our blood ancestry if not more so, because it’s tied to our soul so much more than blood ancestry, all the time with my clients. That if you continue to ignore the tugs from the universe, it will just keep getting louder and louder or things will just continue to feel more and more stagnate from the energy not being able to move anymore. But past life work is challenging. It takes a lot of trust to know that you’re reading the signs correctly instead of just projecting your wants onto a made up idea in your head. So even though I tell my clients do explore this work all time, of course I can’t take my own advise…

Which all of this is to say is that I have found my creative spark again. I have been so inspired by esoteric Taoism, Chinese Fu Talisman work, I-Ching, and so much of the stuff I had started studying in-depth in my early 20s, but backed off from because I didn’t want to be that white girl. But this time coming into this study work feels much different. I have a deeper understanding of my own ancestral traditions that studying Taoism this time around, I am much better able to understand and comprehend the ideas, concepts and ideas as I am studying the language and history. It’s a huge under taking but it absolutely sets my soul on fire.

I have been practicing my Shan Shui and Sumi painting for the first time in over 15 years and it has been SO much fun! I am getting so many creative ideas for my art and my craft that makes me so excited to create! And inspire my Bindrune art. It’s been really, really rewarding picking up my paint brushing and spending an afternoon practicing my calligraphy, learning new things, creating new things, and I want to share it… But that fear of losing followers because it isn’t the content they want to see. Which, I completely understand. I have unfollowed plenty of people in the past because they took a very different direction and it wasn’t what I wanted to see. I get it. Which is probably why the fear is greater.

But all of this really helped me to put things in a bigger perspective. It isn’t about this vs that. Sigil Craft is a huge part of what I do. It isn’t just bindrunes, it’s also Natal Sigils, and now Fu Talisman creation. It’s so much more and ultimately that has what I always wanted. To be a better sigil artist.

So, expect new things. Different things. We should never be afraid of expanding our horizons, and like the sun and moon that is always ever changing, we should be excited for change instead of fearful of it.

Thank you for reading.